Just came back from work. Caught the replay of Abadi while teasing my sister(she's one of the lead actors).Hehe. Will be heading to Atok's house later, maybe after asar. It's been a while since i met up with the clan.

My sister dreamt of me. In that dream she received a call from some hospital saying that i passed away :o. And when she reached the hospital, the doctor told her that i'm not dead, but just in a coma. She said the cause of my coma was that i was involved in an accident or something like i got beaten up.

Word. Thats scary. But then again, it's just a dream. True or not, Allahua'lam.

Ok. Thats all folks. Anyway, I'm shagged and the weathers rather sultry. hmm.

:)

Damn shit. I typed out an entry and then its gone. My internet went bonkers and played me out. Now i gotta type another entry. But hell, im not gonna type what i typed just now. Bitch.

Anyway, this reminded me of my college days, where we had an oratorical contest. One of the contestants, might have this brooding grudge with internet and the whole IT stuff that everytime he went on stage, he will say, " Ladies and gentlemen, today i'm going to tell you why i hate computers/internet/infotech." Now i understand why.

I'm excited that i got the tics for my sisters graduation ceremony. Heh. Im proud of her. She deserve the recognition. She worked hard and earned it. Da pakai topi yg square2 tu la die! heh.
My sister:My hero.

Gotta go and rest. Will be working this weekends. Bluek!

Thats all folks. Hope my internet won't go bonkers again.

Lets pray shall we.

Chao.

Hearsay

Alhamdulillah. My uncle and grandfather both arrived in Singapore safely.

Overheard the aunts talking of atok's experience in Mecca. It's written on my cousin's blog:

"Heard the adults talked about Atok’s experience at Mecca and it was heartbreaking. How he spent the free time he had alone by going to the places that he used to go with arwah Nenek when they went for their pilgrimages previously, how he ran after and chased this woman who looked like my late grandmother, only to realise that the woman wasn’t her when he looked at her face and lastly, how on 3 occasions, he woke up when he heard her voice telling him to wake up and not be lazy. He cried in the car on the way home. "

I know that he still misses Nenek. :(

On the day my grandfather arrived, i was thinking of visiting him the next day. But after the experience i had prior to Nenek's demise, i told myself that there might be no next time.

And now i miss my grandma even more.

Khususan Almarhumah Hajjah Rahmah Binte Mor, Al Fatihah.

10 on the richter

In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most merciful.

It came like a typhoon which pulled my heart strings. Devastation is too small a word. But something reminded me to rejoice:

" We will test your steadfastness with fear and famine, with loss of property and life and crops. Give good news to those who endure with fortitude, who in adversity say: 'We belong to God, and to him we shall return.' On such men will be God's blessing and mercy; such men are rightly guided." Q:2:155-157.

'I belong to God, and to him I shall return.' May i be of those who are rightly guided.

Even then, i still can't sleep. And my mother told me once before:

"Surely, in the remembrance of God all hearts are comforted. Blessed are those who have faith and do good works; blissful is their end." Q:13:28

Shall i go to sleep tonight with these phrase:

"Laaila Ha Ilallah. There is no God But Allah".

Nothing else left unsaid.

Just some daily thing I do

Just came back from my grands place. A farewell gathering before my grandfather departs for his Umrah tomorrow. Talking about umrah, i miss Mecca and Madinah. The last time i went there was a decade ago. I miss the environment, the poeple, the cultural experience and of course, looking at the Ka'aba and Sheikh Sudais and Shuraim's recitation. Listening it live brings it up to another new level altogether. Anyway i'll just hope that everything go on smoothly and my Grandfather and my uncle(they are going there together) have a safe trip forth and back. Insyaallah.

So tomorrow would be a trip to the airport to send them off, and then the family will have a function to attend. It seems that circumsicion is in trend now. Maybe because its the holidays.

Perhaps tomorrow i'll be meeting baby at night. We'll see how.

Thats all folks.

Time Machine

Tomorrow is already Thursday and i think this week passed by me quickly. Maybe because i am constantly busy at work. Anyways, im glad that weekend is coming. Im shagged. Seriously.

I have been trying to revive my economics knowledge and what have i done? I actually grabbed the TODAY newspaper, turned to the business pages with a pencil in my hand and started scribbling little economic analysis as i read the article. Glad to know that i can still recall some of the economic concepts.(:

Anyways, i was reading about the rising cost of fuel in Malaysia and its effects towards the economy as a whole. Its nice that i can explain why it is expected to cause a slowdown in the Malaysian economy and also worsen inflation. The vibe of dissecting an economic article that i had during college days just surged in me all of a sudden. I seriously miss the thrill of studying.

I found that i always reminisce of my JC days. Maybe because i miss the carefree, less-responsibility life i had back then. What you do as a student is simple; study, study and study. I have no financial worries and of course i had real friends, friends who cry with you when you're down and not hypocrites. Maybe the stress is another level altogether but well, school was fun. Seriously, i cannot wait to start studying again on my next phase(University), hehe.

On another note, i'll be taking my BTT this friday. Hope all's good. My girlfriend have been calling me every once in a while at work. Just brighten up my day of how she cares for me. I feel bad that i don't call her while im at work. I love you sayang. I really do. Can't wait to meet her tomorrow. Miss her much.

OK.Till here folks.

Chao.

Of Mondays and Ambitions

Today is okay. Been feeling abit tired because it's monday. Alot of students came down to division for the CEPP programme, apparently they just want to get their Civil Defence badge.

While having the CEPP, me and Sazali got the time to talk about our future plans. And i mean we really had a serious talk. Sazali is one of the few people i have met so far that actually have their ambition and is doing something to make it real. Well, he already did.

Sazali is a sports writer and he was a sports journalist for TODAY newspaper. And so we talked about education, life plans and ambition. He wants to be a journalist, i want to be a teacher. People like him motivates me to work harder to achieve my ambition. He will even be studying this september for his degree in journalism.

I feel great that there are still people who thinks that teaching is not a dumping ground. I have heard of people saying, "Worst comes to worst, if you can't make it in.....why not just apply for teaching." First things first, teaching is not an easy job. Ask any teacher and they will say that teaching requires alot of patience. Secondly, teachers are people you should respect, teaching as a career is, to me, a noble one. You are passing down knowledge to another person and hence, is sacrosanct, divine in it's own right. Everybody starts with a teacher. Teaching will never die. Education forever. And it shall not be a dumping ground. Never.

I'm really thankful that now, im a step further to becoming a teacher. My final destination is of course to be a lecturer. I hope the University matriculation process goes well without any hiccups. I finally get to be in my dream school. Alhamdullilah. *much love to my sister. Your my inspiration babe!*

Assoc Professor Zulqarnain MN

How does that sound now brown cow?

P.s: I love Siti Mariam:)

"A teacher affects eternity; he can never tell where his influence stops." Henry Brooks

Spread the Joy!

Alhamdullilah.

I have gotten two acceptance offers from both local universities i applied to(NUS and NTU).

I was offered Arts and Social Sciences at NUS and Mechanical Engineering at NTU. After much discussion with the family and a few friends, i decided on NUS for three reasons:

1) Its my first choice i.e. FASS, i want to do economics in university.

2) I like the buffet system in FASS which allows us to take a few different subject modules in the first year and declare our major only in the second year. I might have a change of taste:).

3) I can't lie on this. NUS FASS just got that vibe in it. One Word: Prestige. Not to say that other university lacks prestige, but it has always been my dream to go to NUS. Like a dream came true. You know?:)

so yeah.

I want to thank all those who congratulated me upon my acceptance into the university. My father, mother, sisters, familia, girlfriend,friends and acquaintances. I could not have done it without you guys. Thanks alot.

Of course, this is not only my hardwork. I owe alot to Him who listens when i seek guidance. The prayers before the papers and in the midst of baffled inquiry throughout my course of study. Thank You Allah. To you alone i pray and to you alone i seek help.

To Haters: don't hate the player, hate the game.

heh. and yes. I love you Mariam! I love u alot alot!(:

thats all folks. Till next time.

Chao.