In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most merciful.
It came like a typhoon which pulled my heart strings. Devastation is too small a word. But something reminded me to rejoice:
" We will test your steadfastness with fear and famine, with loss of property and life and crops. Give good news to those who endure with fortitude, who in adversity say: 'We belong to God, and to him we shall return.' On such men will be God's blessing and mercy; such men are rightly guided." Q:2:155-157.
'I belong to God, and to him I shall return.' May i be of those who are rightly guided.
Even then, i still can't sleep. And my mother told me once before:
"Surely, in the remembrance of God all hearts are comforted. Blessed are those who have faith and do good works; blissful is their end." Q:13:28
Shall i go to sleep tonight with these phrase:
"Laaila Ha Ilallah. There is no God But Allah".
Nothing else left unsaid.