Just came back from work. Caught the replay of Abadi while teasing my sister(she's one of the lead actors).Hehe. Will be heading to Atok's house later, maybe after asar. It's been a while since i met up with the clan.

My sister dreamt of me. In that dream she received a call from some hospital saying that i passed away :o. And when she reached the hospital, the doctor told her that i'm not dead, but just in a coma. She said the cause of my coma was that i was involved in an accident or something like i got beaten up.

Word. Thats scary. But then again, it's just a dream. True or not, Allahua'lam.

Ok. Thats all folks. Anyway, I'm shagged and the weathers rather sultry. hmm.

:)

Damn shit. I typed out an entry and then its gone. My internet went bonkers and played me out. Now i gotta type another entry. But hell, im not gonna type what i typed just now. Bitch.

Anyway, this reminded me of my college days, where we had an oratorical contest. One of the contestants, might have this brooding grudge with internet and the whole IT stuff that everytime he went on stage, he will say, " Ladies and gentlemen, today i'm going to tell you why i hate computers/internet/infotech." Now i understand why.

I'm excited that i got the tics for my sisters graduation ceremony. Heh. Im proud of her. She deserve the recognition. She worked hard and earned it. Da pakai topi yg square2 tu la die! heh.
My sister:My hero.

Gotta go and rest. Will be working this weekends. Bluek!

Thats all folks. Hope my internet won't go bonkers again.

Lets pray shall we.

Chao.

Hearsay

Alhamdulillah. My uncle and grandfather both arrived in Singapore safely.

Overheard the aunts talking of atok's experience in Mecca. It's written on my cousin's blog:

"Heard the adults talked about Atok’s experience at Mecca and it was heartbreaking. How he spent the free time he had alone by going to the places that he used to go with arwah Nenek when they went for their pilgrimages previously, how he ran after and chased this woman who looked like my late grandmother, only to realise that the woman wasn’t her when he looked at her face and lastly, how on 3 occasions, he woke up when he heard her voice telling him to wake up and not be lazy. He cried in the car on the way home. "

I know that he still misses Nenek. :(

On the day my grandfather arrived, i was thinking of visiting him the next day. But after the experience i had prior to Nenek's demise, i told myself that there might be no next time.

And now i miss my grandma even more.

Khususan Almarhumah Hajjah Rahmah Binte Mor, Al Fatihah.

10 on the richter

In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most merciful.

It came like a typhoon which pulled my heart strings. Devastation is too small a word. But something reminded me to rejoice:

" We will test your steadfastness with fear and famine, with loss of property and life and crops. Give good news to those who endure with fortitude, who in adversity say: 'We belong to God, and to him we shall return.' On such men will be God's blessing and mercy; such men are rightly guided." Q:2:155-157.

'I belong to God, and to him I shall return.' May i be of those who are rightly guided.

Even then, i still can't sleep. And my mother told me once before:

"Surely, in the remembrance of God all hearts are comforted. Blessed are those who have faith and do good works; blissful is their end." Q:13:28

Shall i go to sleep tonight with these phrase:

"Laaila Ha Ilallah. There is no God But Allah".

Nothing else left unsaid.

Just some daily thing I do

Just came back from my grands place. A farewell gathering before my grandfather departs for his Umrah tomorrow. Talking about umrah, i miss Mecca and Madinah. The last time i went there was a decade ago. I miss the environment, the poeple, the cultural experience and of course, looking at the Ka'aba and Sheikh Sudais and Shuraim's recitation. Listening it live brings it up to another new level altogether. Anyway i'll just hope that everything go on smoothly and my Grandfather and my uncle(they are going there together) have a safe trip forth and back. Insyaallah.

So tomorrow would be a trip to the airport to send them off, and then the family will have a function to attend. It seems that circumsicion is in trend now. Maybe because its the holidays.

Perhaps tomorrow i'll be meeting baby at night. We'll see how.

Thats all folks.

Time Machine

Tomorrow is already Thursday and i think this week passed by me quickly. Maybe because i am constantly busy at work. Anyways, im glad that weekend is coming. Im shagged. Seriously.

I have been trying to revive my economics knowledge and what have i done? I actually grabbed the TODAY newspaper, turned to the business pages with a pencil in my hand and started scribbling little economic analysis as i read the article. Glad to know that i can still recall some of the economic concepts.(:

Anyways, i was reading about the rising cost of fuel in Malaysia and its effects towards the economy as a whole. Its nice that i can explain why it is expected to cause a slowdown in the Malaysian economy and also worsen inflation. The vibe of dissecting an economic article that i had during college days just surged in me all of a sudden. I seriously miss the thrill of studying.

I found that i always reminisce of my JC days. Maybe because i miss the carefree, less-responsibility life i had back then. What you do as a student is simple; study, study and study. I have no financial worries and of course i had real friends, friends who cry with you when you're down and not hypocrites. Maybe the stress is another level altogether but well, school was fun. Seriously, i cannot wait to start studying again on my next phase(University), hehe.

On another note, i'll be taking my BTT this friday. Hope all's good. My girlfriend have been calling me every once in a while at work. Just brighten up my day of how she cares for me. I feel bad that i don't call her while im at work. I love you sayang. I really do. Can't wait to meet her tomorrow. Miss her much.

OK.Till here folks.

Chao.

Of Mondays and Ambitions

Today is okay. Been feeling abit tired because it's monday. Alot of students came down to division for the CEPP programme, apparently they just want to get their Civil Defence badge.

While having the CEPP, me and Sazali got the time to talk about our future plans. And i mean we really had a serious talk. Sazali is one of the few people i have met so far that actually have their ambition and is doing something to make it real. Well, he already did.

Sazali is a sports writer and he was a sports journalist for TODAY newspaper. And so we talked about education, life plans and ambition. He wants to be a journalist, i want to be a teacher. People like him motivates me to work harder to achieve my ambition. He will even be studying this september for his degree in journalism.

I feel great that there are still people who thinks that teaching is not a dumping ground. I have heard of people saying, "Worst comes to worst, if you can't make it in.....why not just apply for teaching." First things first, teaching is not an easy job. Ask any teacher and they will say that teaching requires alot of patience. Secondly, teachers are people you should respect, teaching as a career is, to me, a noble one. You are passing down knowledge to another person and hence, is sacrosanct, divine in it's own right. Everybody starts with a teacher. Teaching will never die. Education forever. And it shall not be a dumping ground. Never.

I'm really thankful that now, im a step further to becoming a teacher. My final destination is of course to be a lecturer. I hope the University matriculation process goes well without any hiccups. I finally get to be in my dream school. Alhamdullilah. *much love to my sister. Your my inspiration babe!*

Assoc Professor Zulqarnain MN

How does that sound now brown cow?

P.s: I love Siti Mariam:)

"A teacher affects eternity; he can never tell where his influence stops." Henry Brooks

Spread the Joy!

Alhamdullilah.

I have gotten two acceptance offers from both local universities i applied to(NUS and NTU).

I was offered Arts and Social Sciences at NUS and Mechanical Engineering at NTU. After much discussion with the family and a few friends, i decided on NUS for three reasons:

1) Its my first choice i.e. FASS, i want to do economics in university.

2) I like the buffet system in FASS which allows us to take a few different subject modules in the first year and declare our major only in the second year. I might have a change of taste:).

3) I can't lie on this. NUS FASS just got that vibe in it. One Word: Prestige. Not to say that other university lacks prestige, but it has always been my dream to go to NUS. Like a dream came true. You know?:)

so yeah.

I want to thank all those who congratulated me upon my acceptance into the university. My father, mother, sisters, familia, girlfriend,friends and acquaintances. I could not have done it without you guys. Thanks alot.

Of course, this is not only my hardwork. I owe alot to Him who listens when i seek guidance. The prayers before the papers and in the midst of baffled inquiry throughout my course of study. Thank You Allah. To you alone i pray and to you alone i seek help.

To Haters: don't hate the player, hate the game.

heh. and yes. I love you Mariam! I love u alot alot!(:

thats all folks. Till next time.

Chao.

Alhamdullilah!

Alhamdullilah, all praise be to Allah, the owner of all things and victory of mine. To him we get these things, and to him it will return. Amma ba'du...

Ok..so my results turned out ok...not spectacular but good enough to give me eligibility for a number of university courses in NUS, NTU and NIE. I'm currently undergoing the choosing process. Seriously I'm not sure of what course to choose.

The choices:

Economics

Mathematics

Business

Malay Studies

Psychology

Engineering

Nursing

Science

Education

hmmm....choose within 3 days..

and to all the well-wishers...thanks a million!

I thank Allah again for giving me this chance. Thank you Allah. I knew you heard my prayers.

Chao:)

Final Countdown!

hello.

today is the day!

anyway..it feels so nice to be able to relax at home after working for 3 weeks non-stop. No off nothing..work and work and work.

heh..

anyway,

would like to wish all my peers taking their As a very good luck. Whatever the results is, doesn't matter. Just keep on walking.Aight.

now going to iron my clothes, get ready for prayers and then....jeng jeng jeng...

heh

updates later. If i don't update that means...u noe lah what has happened.

ok.
chao.

Mari kita lihat siapa yang kena!

I cant sleep.
Somebody sing me a lullaby please?

I keep thinking of my results tomorrow. Seriously, I've worked hard for this and if anything goes wrong then okla, gua accept juga. Heh. I tried hard, and if i fail, ok fine, aku bodoh. Or shit happens, or not suited for JC education or not good enough yet for university or....

Have been going through universities websites, advanced diploma courses on newspapers and the net and even faoundation years in certain Australian universities. And damn, Aus universities are gonna screw my cash dry if i enrol. But who said life is always cheap and easy?

One thing i hate about results day i the suspense. It can be fun but it can break you if you take it too hard. And having to face your friends, teachers, calls from acquaintances. It would be all sweet if the results are nice. But in a case of the otherwise. ehem ehem.

heh. Im just typing and i dunno whats the focus. heh but one thing for sure, im nervous. I don't wanna say anything now cos anything can happen.

We'll wait for tomorrow.

Bye.

RED ALERT!

When i blog means there is something important.

heh.

results will be out this friday at 14 30 hrs. seriously, im not hoping much out of this.
i may make it or i won't. Now let me say this, if i make it then I thank Allah and everyone around me for their motivation and criticisms. But if i don't make it, from the bottom of my heart, i apologise for the disappointment i brought to everyone who's concerned. Neither do i expect it to turn out that way.
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But whetever it is, im still hoping for the best. But i prepared myself for the worst already. I've got a few other plans in place just in case.

And to be honest, im damn scared for this friday. Every now and then, when i think about it, my heart beats faster. I get spasms and goosebumps.

watever it is, FRIDAY eh?

Penghulu segala hari.

:)

Selamat!

Talking of my greatest regret

About a week has passed and now then i have the courage to write about this.

You know, i'm the kind of person who, whenever a drastic change takes place, needs to take time and real solid evidence to tell me its for real.

And yes, when i see that the chair she used to sit is now used by someone else,

yes, when i no more see the white chair with the black bottom cushion used in zuhur/asar/maghrib/isyak for her prayers

yes, when i no more hear the gentle nuances of her voice whenever i give salam to the house

yes, when i heard the cute laugh no more when any member of the family cracks a joke

yes, when theres no more of me joking with her whenever she gives me extra cash

yes, when i see my grandpa alone at the window when we go home every weekend

yes, when there's one less person in the kitchen at the eve of Iduladha

yes, when.....i kissed her forehead and cheeks for the last time that evening.

Yes, Grandma left for Allah's abode on the morning of monday 10 december 2007.

Grandma i miss you.

If i had known this is to happen, I'd have not went to Ubin to enjoy myself.

I'd have visit her even though its just for a minute.

That was my greatest regret.

The regret of my life.

Khususan Almarhumah Hajjah Rahma Binte Mor, Al Fatihah.

May Allah bless you and may you be placed among the pious and his most loved servants.

Amin.

Guess who's back?

ok..i don't know if anybody or anyone is going to read this for that matter. But i'll just write some stuff...heh...i think i am going back into blogging, since im done with my As.

well life has been an ass but also great at times. soon im entering a new phase. NS lah sey!!! I got into Civil Defence and as Zahid put it, abg-abg api. Heh. Okla i guess...CD pun CD la..heh..

anyway, i got a few poems i came up with, but it is in malay. and some in english. I almost lost touch with the whole writing stuff. heh. been scientised by A levels. Say what? im taking bio, phy and econs..where got inspiration like that??

heh..ok this is a bit random but yeah..im just typing what i want to..my blog what?heh..ok..i dunno if anybody reads this la ok.

Respect De Chao.

Random

ns sBack.

wah..its been quite sometime since i actually updated..my blogs dead...

anyway...the past weeks have been great...i think im doing ok in sch..except for physics..cos i seem to not get the whole idea of it..and of course all-time-not-ok-subject: biology. Bio sucks..memorisation work damn irritating...

i@fun carnival was..quite fun...got no stall..so was put into logistics..it was such a mess..disorganised...i know its not easy but at least plan betul2la sikit..rabak seh...khairul, aishah and maya came..and a few other friends...

then was the family chalet..it felt good to be able to catch up with the cousins...we are very closed..watched each other grow up...but all of us are getting old...haha..man..i can't believe i'm 18..its so fast...:)

inspiration came to a halt nowadays..i don't know why...maybe cos preoccupied with schoolwork..which is stressful...A levels..damn man...but im gonna ace it...and get to uni...confident seh...

i dunno what to write..my brain jam....should i study or should i not????

Next time.

Respect till infinity

The Poet

La Tahzan

Al-Fatihah
I would like to make a special tribute in the loving memory of Professor Syed Hussein Al-Attas who have returned to Allah's SWT abode on Thursday, 25/1/07. May Allah bless him for all his contributions to the society and may he be placed among the pious and the Syuhadah. Amin.
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Anyway...i was browsing thru friendster and i found a blog which posted an excerpt of the book titled 'La Tahzan'(don't be sad) by Dr 'Aidh Al Qarni. Much love to the owner of the blog and mad props to Dr 'Aidh. So here it goes:

If you are stricken by poverty, others are chained in debt.
If you don't have shoes, others have no feet.
If you feel pain now, others have been aching for years.
If your son dies, other have lost many.

If you have sinned, then repent.
If you have committed a mistake, correct it.
The doors of repentance are ever open!
The fountain of forgiveness is every rich!
So, don't be sad!

Let all bygones be bygones!
What is predestined for you, you shall see it!
Being sad will not change anything!
So don't be sad!

Sadness spoils your life!
Destroys your happiness!
And turns it into wretchedness!
So don't be sad!

Supplication is your shield!
Prayer is your beacon!
Prostration is your means!
So don't be sad!

See how vast is the earth!
How nice are the gardens and forests!
How bright are the stars!
All are happy, but you are sad!
So, don't be sad!

You have sweet water to drink!
Fresh air to breathe!
Feet to walk with!
You sleep safely in your bed!
So, why be sad?

Every cloud has a silver lining!
After long nights, come the bright sun!
Life will soon give you a smile!
So be ready to get it!

And don't be sad!
Real life is that spent in happiness!
So cross out you sad days from your age!
Peace of mind is the real treasure!
Sorrow avails not!
So don't be sad!

Dr 'Aidh Al Qarni

aight...
till we meet again...
bye...

Respect till Infinity

Zul Pujangga

Ode to my 'Muslim' friend

This i wish i don't have to tell but i got to,
it was morn, three men conversing between two,
its the first day since the years passed,
reminiscing moments that lasts.
They asked a question, "man why don't you drink?",
no thinking, i just said that i'm a muslim,
and their next reaction did blew me of my mind,
they were laughing, giggling sif' i spit a comedy line.
It hit my temple, like thoughts coming in gushes,
cos' my hope for a muslim friend crash and burn into ashes.

I'm not irate, i don't wish to curse.
I just wanna lay down, priorities first.
They laughed, yeah so whats the big ish'?
they are muslims too, damn and thats a big hit.
that moment, my mind was empty,
as shock and disgust overcame me,
i start to query:
I can't believe how true this reality?
like the sweet fairy tale or bitter tsunami?
I felt like packing my bag, stash by stash,
as my hope for a muslim friend burns to ash.

This the third verse cos two just ain't sufficient.
This message i bring friends take time to listen,
if you don't wanna follow then walk out silent,
theres no need for you to start your dissing.
Ridicule and act tough, aping and then laugh,
gaping at your stuff, denying in your doubt,
man, i wish the Prophet could live again,
so they could see how he protected our religion.
God, make sahabas live again,
so we can see how they suffered and then prolly we can comprehend,
till that day come i'm in the mosque and on my knees,
hope for a muslim friend to come, a wish that never cease.

Zul Pujangga

Respect till infinity.

"O ye who believe! Intoxicants and gambling, (dedication of) stones, and (divination by) arrows, are an abomination,- of Satan's handwork: eschew such (abomination), that ye may prosper."(5;90)

Party's Over

If you ever be in a revolution, you might as well win it....

wassup people...see..its the last week of holidays and damn...i still have alot of homeworks to do...i hate online assignments...i dunno why..call me orthodoxical but i prefer doing homework on paper using a pen/pencil...knawmsayin...it just flow better...and akin to that...i have overdue online assignments...leceh to the max ah....

reason being why my hws undone is because..for the past one month..has been all party...and non academic work....podcast...going out with friends..family...chalets...bbqs...and of course just slacking and reliving the glory of the post 'O's days..snapped back to reality when i happen to look at the calender one fine day..i realised school is in a stones throw away...i tried doing some physics stuffs...and damn..as expected...i forgot most of the stuff..lots of catching up to do..time to get down to business..

anyway...something recent...a friend got hospitalized...for appendix...never jump around after eating man...never...get well soon Aidil...

my home comp is spoiled..using my sister's laptop now...since the comp is spoiled...the distraction is kept to the minimal..my siblings and me started doing what we did when we were young kids...playing carrom...tea party..haha...at 3 in the morning..insane people..but..thats what bonding is about...show some love...

anyway...my N73 is such an ass right now..gonna hit the nokia service centre to repair..i just bought dammit...

aight..inspiration doesn't seem to flow nowadays..mebbe bcoz im busy..but the next rhyme..i'm gonna make sure its dope..

and yeah..Merry Christmas to those celebrating...aight...

till we meet again next time...

We gotta keep on walking.

Zul Pujangga

"I wish that you could show some love, instead of hating so much when you see some other people coming up"

Azan

Allahuakhbar, Allahuakhbar
mataku setengah pejam.
Allahuakhbar, Allahuakhbar
cahaya di kamar kelam.

Asyhadu allaa ilaaha illallah
menyergah mimpi, kesunyian malam
asyhadu anna Muhammadar-Rasuulullah
bangkit jasadku dari tilam.

Haiya 'alash-shalaah!
airwuduk membasahi wajah.
Haiya 'alal-falaah!
seruan belum disahut ummah.

Ash-shalaatu khairun minan-naum,
bangkitlah wahai manusia!
Ash-shalaatu khairun minan-naum
dari penindasan dan kedangkalan ilmiah!

Allahu akbar, Allahu akbar
syukur rezeki dari yang esa.
Laa ilaaha illallaah
pintu taubat masih terbuka.

Renungilah,
kelahiran diiringi azan,
kematian diiringi solat.
Antara azan dan solat,
betapa singkatnya hidup ini.

Zulqarnain MN

-Zul Pujangga-

Why?

ok..so now my PW is over...the outcome...is a different story...anyway..my exams are over and Alhamdulillah i passed all my subjects..and got 1st position...thank god..hope for more good news in future...

raya-ing with friends is aight...going out this monday with the IJC people...so far have been out with evergreen sec mates...nice people they are..its fun to meet them again..n just make time stop for a while..n reminiscing the past..the times during the whole 4 year stint..n treasuring the friendship that we have..haha..

money is the least of my priority...i didn't even calculate how much i got..and use it as if i'm drinking plain water..knawmsayin?..i'm not as spendthrift as i used to be..i'm gonna discipline my money again..haha..

anyway..on the 9th of november, Zul Pujangga turned 17...can't believe it..time flies so fast..that i have no time to grab it..

in the midst of that bithday wishes and all..i wondered..why celebrate when u r a year closer to death?..one of my friend said its an untimely moment to think of stuff like that..but if i dun reflect on my birthday...then when?

anyway..i found the answer...it all boils down to moderation...u can celebrate and thank God and people around you for helping you to come thus far..however not too much of it..Yin & Yang...

i do have alot to do in the coming holidays..and most of it are mini projects..i planned to write and make a rhyme with Fudin...he rhyming in english..and i'm rhyming in malay..see how it goes...then podcast recording for national podcast competition..and of course..the homeworks and revision for JC2 curriculum..so much for holidays...

"Your work will never end until you take your last 'A' level paper."
hell yeah...

so..till the next time we meet..

Respect till infinity

-ThePoet/ Zul Pujangga-

"Verily, all things have We created in proportion and measure."(54:49)